im sitting here in my infinite wisdom having fully completed my night of dance, homework, preparation for tomorrow, and my checklist (yes i actually make those- i know i know! so lame...) to a warm bed, fuzzy socks, and my favorite pair of oversized SJ gym shorts. i have realized that i am somewhat communication incompetent. i try so hard to keep in touch with people but fail miserably. i now live by my phone and texts and facebook to keep up with and track the daily happenings of the people i like, and even some that i don't. somehow i am in constant communication with them but never actually am. just like every other teen i'm so self absorbed that i could really care less what ur doing. what i have to do, where i need to be, how i did on this test, or when is that homework due is so much more important and i don't have the time or better yet energy to breath, stop, and talk. i simply let those moments fly by and most of the time miss important things- things i would want people to notice if it were me- like if i'm having a bad day or if i'm so upset or maybe really happy i want everybody else to notice but not visa verse.  i never really stop to type a long email to a friend so that we distance ourselves even though we could talk for hours if i gave up the time. i never really call a person just rejoice or console them through a text and what does that even help? i just can't find time in my busy checklist of a life for the people that really matter. i have lost perspective of that. the fact is that to know a person can become one of ur friends ur relationship cannot solely be based upon emails and facebook chats. the way u interact and bond with them IN PERSON is essential to friendship. friends can chat on facebook or text u constantly but the entire time all they wish is that u were there together in person. thats friendship. its not superficial. and once u learn that it you find ur real sole mates.