im sitting here in my infinite wisdom having fully completed my night of dance, homework, preparation for tomorrow, and my checklist (yes i actually make those- i know i know! so lame...) to a warm bed, fuzzy socks, and my favorite pair of oversized SJ gym shorts. i have realized that i am somewhat communication incompetent. i try so hard to keep in touch with people but fail miserably. i now live by my phone and texts and facebook to keep up with and track the daily happenings of the people i like, and even some that i don't. somehow i am in constant communication with them but never actually am. just like every other teen i'm so self absorbed that i could really care less what ur doing. what i have to do, where i need to be, how i did on this test, or when is that homework due is so much more important and i don't have the time or better yet energy to breath, stop, and talk. i simply let those moments fly by and most of the time miss important things- things i would want people to notice if it were me- like if i'm having a bad day or if i'm so upset or maybe really happy i want everybody else to notice but not visa verse. i never really stop to type a long email to a friend so that we distance ourselves even though we could talk for hours if i gave up the time. i never really call a person just rejoice or console them through a text and what does that even help? i just can't find time in my busy checklist of a life for the people that really matter. i have lost perspective of that. the fact is that to know a person can become one of ur friends ur relationship cannot solely be based upon emails and facebook chats. the way u interact and bond with them IN PERSON is essential to friendship. friends can chat on facebook or text u constantly but the entire time all they wish is that u were there together in person. thats friendship. its not superficial. and once u learn that it you find ur real sole mates.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Sunday, February 22, 2009
i looooove :D
i love:
flip flooops
Posted by fruitlady at 6:57 PM 0 flying purple people eaters
Thursday, January 1, 2009
I have realized...
I have realized that u can't go through life pretending your happiness is there. You have to find it. You have to make it. You have to lead yourself. Nobody else is gonna hold your hand and make an announcement saying "ALL ABOARD THE HAPPINESS TRAIN!" so how do i get that train to stop for me? it seems like every time i get close to buying a ticket i miss it. or if i somehow mange to get on i get so confused about where to get off that i just end up right back where i started. so you let one person on and one person gets off. fair trade right? wrong! what if they don't hold the same value to you? then the person that got on can't fill that void left undoubtedly by the other person. so how do u patch it up? and what if all the seats are full? doesn't it seem like it would be easy enough to expand? add an extra car? but apparently not. there is never enough room but always some spaces that will never b filled. somebody left them, somebody got off, and i can't convince them to hop back on because they're gone and they don't care. They left and now i'm still here, forever staring at the seat that is destined to remind me of that person while they go on with life. So why do some people get a permanent seat on this train and mine keeps getting taken? just because i'm complicated...or maybe i make things complicated for myself but i want my seat!
ok big metaphor... geez...
Posted by fruitlady at 8:42 PM 2 flying purple people eaters
Monday, December 29, 2008
I am...
still trying to figure out how to make the batman symbol with my hands
in love with heathy!
defiantly harboring a hatred towards jokers
hopelessly obsessed with playing solitaire
hopelessly devoted to YOU
sock hopping in the poodle skirts of all poodle skirts
in awe of little cute poofy poodles and their boys :P
boycotting technology
not
in love with my phoney pooo
jolly
professing my infatuation with my funion
not showing any talent towards hula hooping
ex static about new years
looking forward to kicking some ddr toosh
feeling like i got cut in two
missing my beloved monster
wishing i had one of those gosh darn obnoxious yellow slickers
galoshes rock my socks off
never ever gonna change my unmatching socks
eternally grateful for one gal who changed my footwear forever
wondering if people are blinded by the sequins
thinking "oh dear jesus just don't look at the hats PLEASE!"
that painting with farmer and wife. hear me RAWR!
wishing on the mona lisa smiiiile
thinking that pics where u TRY to like a distorted alien are the best kind
remembering et and wishing he would really just GO HOME!
sipping away on the biggest spot of coffee know to mankind
singing
so long
farewell
alvedersain
good night
i hate to go and leave this pretty site
thinking u will turn my day upside down if u know what that is from :)
Posted by fruitlady at 9:56 PM 1 flying purple people eaters